Follow Your Heart

Follow Your Heart
By Crusnick.

Author's opinion:

I would never thought of trying to inspire people around me, to be honest I always did my best to make people happy.

But I was never strong enough to grow and learn from the best.

If it's an image or doodle or a poem, I will always keep trying to make people understand what's going on.

We all need a wing were we can hide under, to get fed and protected.

I just hope I can reach many hearts !

CAUSE YOU NEED TO FOLLOW YOURS !


As the cat looking into the long distance,
as it would meant that your head could

be full of thoughts.

You should follow your heart, no matter

what. And sometimes this can be very

irritating or miserable.

As I experienced at one point in your life,
you are stuck in a loop.

You can see it as the social circle that

been explained to me once,
I was personally stuck in one.

Imagine a white paper sheet in front of

you on the table.
Draw a Big circle in the middle, and

write down your name.

Draw bubbles of the people you want to

be close to you on the paper too.
And the closer they are the closer you
put the bubbles to the big bubble in the center.
Attach them with a line, since your
bonded to the ones you love.
Be honest about what you put on that paper, you want to get the genuine results.
Now we get to the different side of the test, imagine the people you don't dare to interact with.
Put them in order, Further away means almost impossible to get into a
conversation.
Closer means that there will be a chance you could interact with the people.
Do you see what is the differences ?
Obviously the people that means a lot to you are very close, and the people you would not know personally and be scared of facing in public are further away.
Were not going to attach you to the subject yet, if you got trouble socializing
you should have a feeling right now that drawing a line from yourself to those people are harder.

But life is difficult sometimes, obviously your not born perfect.

Everyone is different, and everyone got more peace with her/himself and is able to suppress the anxiety.
But it's not impossible, if you don't believe me I am the living proof.
I was in that dilemma with myself,I always had people to do things for me.
Since I had low self esteem and was very shy.
But older I've got the more I tried myself,and sometimes it makes you uncertain
about it.
first or two times you will be like, ''I did it but it doesn't feel very good.''
And the chance that you don't get supported.
I always been supported though, but if you're not I WANT TO TELL YOU DON'T GIVE UP!
It will pay off one day !
Even if it cost you 100 times to get it right, go for it.
If you step over that bump in the road,
you will see the other side.
To get back to the point about the social bubbles, I did not mention that we
humans got an aura you can believe it or not.
You can see it as a popular meter,the better looking the bigger the aura will be around you.
The easy going or down to earth characteristics are ONE HUGE LIKE to everyone !
Obviously, you are or you know someone that is.
Sometimes you wish that people are all down to earth.
So you could approach them easily.
To disappointing you that's not the case, but that doesn't mean you can't put a smile
on these peoples faces.
I witnessed, that even the most grumpy people can be full of laughter.
We all been through a time when we were grumpy, so you know how that must have been.
Imagine that there is a group of people that have a difficult life, and they are
endlessly fighting themselves ?

There is no way out of the darkness, how would you feel that way ?
You should help them out, it's not a waste to do whats right !
Even If it takes 5 minutes or 1 hour, but I can guarantee you that it was worth it.
There might be people that did the same for you, but remember !
You can complain about something, and you can join the groups of inflicting the
damage or you could take action straight away and prevent this happening.
And you could even inspire people around you, you don't need to be strong /
intelligent / rich / poor / to achieve such a thing.
I believe that if you reach out to people, that they become something entirely
else.

To get back to the subject of following your heart, imagine that you are stuck in
that big bubble.
And that the people you love the most, can't help you out.
Cause whatever they try to do, it will only cause trouble.
Both sides, this could be yourself too.
Imagine that the bubble is dark, and you cannot see in the dark.
You need to touch with your hands around you to find out what or where
you are.
The only thing that keeps you going is your beating heart.
So why not having faith in it ?
No one can reach to you, you always thought that the ones you love the most could help you through every situation.
It would been HELL, your head is full of regrets and pain.
You might have heard this before,
sometimes it's easier to talk someone
that doesn't know you at all than talking
to someone you know your whole life.
Personally I've been lucky to know some
person / people.
Fiona is her name, and we been friends
for over a year.
It was like she heard my call, it was like
she was able to see through the dark bubble.
Cause somehow she felt related to me, saw the pain I've been going through.
And she saw how happy I could be, she put her faith in me and reached out
to me.
She put all her money aside, and her personally problems.
Cause she did what I WANT YOU GUYS TO DO TOO !
Do not just stand there and stare, if you feel this the right thing to do FOLLOW IT !
She opened her arms for me, she put her hands through the pain and regrets.
She opened the dark bubble where I've been stuck in for months, I was weak and I had
to lean on her shoulder.
She told me:
''Take my hand and I don't want you to do what I want you to do.
I want you to do what you want yourself.''
She gave me hope to believe in, she gave me a shoulder to lean on.
She hold me in her arms and she whispered in my ears,

''One point in life, you walk to a random railway station and you don't buy a ticket and step inside the train and it will follow the rails of the past and future. And you are blinded by the things what's going on around you, and at one point you just know where to step out.
Your heart navigates your future.
It will never betray yourself.
It only reveal the person you are or could become.''

To get a bit further into this subject, Do you know why you didn't buy a ticket in the first place ?
Some of you might follow your heart but aren't sure where it will lead you.
That resembles the confusion that you got in the past.
But for some reason you believe in your heart.
If you did read this and you can relate to this than you understand why I wrote this.
It's a hard decision sometimes to do what you're heart is asking you to do.
But it might help you out.
And for the ones that know exactly how they want their future to be.
They would bought a ticket before they entered the train to the future.
They would end where they knew exactly where to go to.
We are not born to do nothing, we got a mission.
If we accomplish it or not, we will grow older and inspire people in any way.
We steal each other's heart, and happy for a lifetime.
I just want you to do what you think is right.

#amen.

p.s It's brave to listen to your heart, and act on your own.